reflections on 2011

*yawns* well, it’s 11:13pm now, plenty of time to reflect on the year that is just about to leave us!
• Uni-wise: again, this has been another year where I haven’t been able to further continue my tertiary studies. Will I ever complete my bachelor’s degree? Only god knows. However, this year, mother did force me to take a volunteer tutor course for English. Like I’ve told her time and time again, I’m only interested in finding a PAID job, but she’s adamant I take it. Fair enough, I’ll do the course for six months, because mother believes that the only way I can get a paid job is by volunteering first. However, if by the end of six months, no one’s offered me a paid job, I’m IMMEDIATELY quitting and focusing my efforts more towards finding a paid job. Like I’ve said, I’ll do anything, as long as I can do it sitting down. Even wash toilets. XD
• Sporting-wise: luckily, the parents have dropped the idea of gleefully forcing me to go play badminton with them, so my year of sport has been entirely limited to enthusiastically waving the wii remote around during wii sports resort. XD but ‘twas a great year, what with the maroons taking out the origin shield (thus giving locky the farewell he deserves), the roar winning the a-league (dad went to watch that game live!) and the aussies squishing the kiwis at least once when they played sometime earlier this year. XD
• Politically-wise: well, Julia gillard’s still our prime minister … but wasn’t can-do Campbell trying for a tilt at the top job? On another note, after months of reading, I finally finished john howard’s autobiography! Wonder if Kevin rudd will put out one. :P
• Spiritually-wise: well, come feb the 3rd, 2012, it will have been five years since the unfaithful god so wantonly destroyed my life with the brain tumour and left me the useless blob that I currently am. I’m still left without answers why he decided to destroy my life; I mean, what was it that I did/didn’t do that made god hate me so badly that he totally destroyed my life? Was it that I didn’t pray enough, didn’t sing songs of praise loud enough, didn’t read the bible enough, didn’t give enough offering? God’s never given me an answer. I remember back in 2007, when I was still hospitalised, I’d cry out to god nightly and ask him, “god, how long will you hate me for? Will five years be enough? After five years, will you turn your hatred away from me and onto one of the squillions of other people in the world? I mean, surely, there are so many people, surely, surely I can’t be the most hateful one there is! But come February the 3rd, 2012, five years will have passed since god so wantonly destroyed my life, and I seriously doubt that god will have healed me by then. I mean, I know he has the power to, but I also know he won’t bother. *sigh* but for my part, I’m going to try stop singing how much I hate him out aloud. Yes, I’ll still sing of my utter and total hatred of him inside my heart, but I’ll do so silently, unless I’ve had a crappy day.
• Work-wise: *sigh* I’ve had several job interviews this year, but still without success. >< but I’ll keep looking! Remember, I’ll do anything, as long as I can do it sitting down, even washing toilets. XD
• Everything else-wise: sadly, physio still consumes a huge portion of my life; I think way too much of my disability pension goes to Vincent the physio. XD but I’m super-duper excited, coz come 20th January, 2012, the parents and I are boarding a plane and returning to hong kong to visit all our family and friends! I’m incredibly excited!! :D moreover, little mickey’s already promised to play with me, if he doesn’t, I’ll sulk at him something awesome until he does. XD
Am I supposed to make my new year’s resolutions, too? Well, my main one is always to improve my mobility, to improve the functional use of my affected left side. Actually, same with the year that’s just about to end: I shall try my hardest not to fall over more than ten times this year! This year was a surprise success, me only crashing to the ground seven times this year. Will aim for seven or less next year, then.
Well, I probably should have more new year’s resolutions than what I’ve put up, but mother says 2012 will arrive in like ten minutes! So my apologies for any errors here, I haven’t the time to proofread!
Righteo, wishing everyone a safe and prosperous new year! All the best for 2012!
Cheers,
Em. ^^