Thursday, December 31, 2020

2020 Reflections

 

Whoops again this year I’ve been unorganised; 2021 arrives in just a little over seven hours time and I’m only starting to pen (well, type XD) my reflections for 2020 now! So, how has this year been for me?

Physically wise: unfortunately, after not suffering a proper ‘fall’ for the past two years (although I did slip down on the wet tiled floor once and trip forward and right kneeplant – thankfully not faceplant XD - near the kitchen bench another time) this year has been third time UNlucky for me, because I was idiotic enough to totally stack it not once but TWICE. >< At least both times I remembered to lean forward as I was going down and didn’t SMASH my head against the wall behind me… but I totally agree with the headline I saw on Sunrise today while I was eating breakfast: “2020: A YEAR WE’D RATHER FORGET …” One good thing for me physically wise this year was that I started walking laps around the Great Court at UQ! When my physio student first proposed that to me, I was like, “Uh, but since I walk so slowly nowadays, by the time I walk up to the Great Court it’ll be time to walk back down to the NAB and say bye.” Only then my current physio student (they have five week rotational blocks) said, “No, see this manual wheelchair here? You sit in it, I’ll wheel you up to the Great Court, you get out and walk one lap around the Great Court before you sit back down in the wheelchair and I’ll push you back to the NAB.” The first time I did this, after I arrived back to the NAB, I’d excitedly burbled to the teacher, “Where I walked around today was where I used to take uni classes coz I studied law before suffering the brain injury! My last year here was in 2006; it’s 2020 now but the place still looks exactly the same!” Sonia laughed and told me, “Em, it’s been exactly the same ever since I graduated from there back in 1988. Tell me, where you even born then?” I’d smirked back at her and shot back, “Of course I was! In 1988, I was the ripe old age of … ONE.” XD Hopefully when I have physio next year at the NAB I’ll get to hike around the Great Court again!

Work wise: last year, the disability employment service I was with started me on some cert two/four in office admin that I paid like forty bucks for but then ditched me; I tried to continue the study myself but was slow. The student support person I was liasing with said he’d keep giving me extensions provided I submitted one subject per month; near the end of the month I logged in with the intention of completing another unit only to find I’d already been locked out! I contacted student support explaining my situation and asking could my account please be reactivated so I could keep continuing study; someone said someone from student services would contact me but nobody ever did … hmm, early next year I must try contacting them again and chase what happened to my enrolment … remember, I’m willing to do ANYTHING as long as I can do it seated and it gets me paid properly … if you need further information, the last time I checked I typed at 31 WPM with one hand at 100% accuracy.

Spiritually wise: this year, I followed a Bible reading plan where I read the entire Bible in one year. I tried that once with Fiona So two years ago but gave myself a break from it last year because I already signup for three different daily devotions. This year I decided to try again to read the entire Bible in one year. I’m not sure why … perhaps I was subconsciously hoping to find out why the cruel and unfaithful God hated me and what I’d haveta do for Him to love me and restore my life back to me again? I guess the only thing I can say to that’s if you don’t expect anything, you can’t be disappointed … time and time again, God’s not come through for me. As I read through all the books this year, I was just struck again and again with how much I dislike G od. You know how Paul (I think it’s him) says somewhere in the Bible that if God’s for us, then who can be against us? My immediate thought reaction to that sentence was but if God’s against you then you are just totally SCREWED. People like Pharaoh when Moses was with the Egyptians. Sure the Bible says that sometimes Pharaoh hardened his own heart and wouldn’t let God’s people go, but other times, it was God Himself who hardened Pharaoh’s heart! Meaning poor Pharaoh was condemned right from the very beginning coz the cruel and unfaithful God denied him the chance to let the Israelites go … Or people like Job’s children, who all perished because God allowed Satan to wreak havoc on Job’s life, so long as Satan didn’t touch Job himself. Can you imagine Job’s kids arriving before the throne of judgement and asking God in confusion, “What happened? Life was going great … and then suddenly my life ended?” I can just see the cruel and unfaithful God offhandedly replying, “Oh, I just wanted to test your dad out. Your life didn’t matter whatsoever, so I offed you to see how he would react.” *sigh* I seriously hope accepting that God sent His Son Jesus down to Earth to die for your sins is enough to get you into heaven. Hopefully you aren’t required to love God because if that’s a requirement before you’re allowed into heaven for all eternity I hope someone will please teach me how to love the God who’s so wantonly and totally destroyed my life back in 2007 with the disabling brain injury because the correct response to Someone who’s totally destroyed your life surely isn’t adoration but hatred! Somewhere in the Bible it says that we love because God first loved us. Well, I hate God only because I found out how much He hated me. I never hated anyone until I discovered God’s hatred; I only know how to hate because of God’s hatred. I’m only good at hating because God showed me exactly how much He hated me. I can only laugh inside when anybody tries telling me that God loves me because if He truly loves me, He’s got a damn awful way of showing it … suppose all I can do’s keep on keeping on; like I’m sure I’ve said before I can’t jolly well commit apostasy, convert to say Islam and still hope to spend eternity in heaven with my most beloved maternal grandma. By next September, it’ll have been five years since EM had a church camp where the speaker was Steve Nation; I missed the majority of his final talk on Sunday morning because I was having a D&M with his wife Kei Ying. When I got a bit tearful and explained to her that I couldn’t reconcile the God who ‘claims’ He’s faithful, loving and whatnot with the God I’ve experienced, she suggested I try praying to God to ‘bridge the gap’, you know, God this is what You seem like to me but this is how You portray Yourself in the Bible; can You please show me how you really are? I’ve taken her advice; every night before I hit the sack I beg God to please ‘bridge the gap’, to please show me apparently what you really are. Could you please just hit me with a revelation? Let me just suddenly understand that you are faithful, you are loving, you are kind, you are compassionate, you are healing, you are everything You claim to be but I don’t see you being; please just let me get it like that! But if you won’t do it that way, then do it slowly, do it incrementally, but please don’t not do it, because this is my life You are wasting here! I’ve already said if you don’t expect anything you can’t be disappointed only I keep hoping beyond all hope that one day in the very near future everything will fall back into place and God will restore my life back to me. Sure, it’s alright to hope but it’s just delusional to hope too fancifully, don’t you think? Again, I guess I can only keep on keeping on…

Sporting wise: when COVID-19 first started getting serious, I vaguely remember Japan insisting that the 2020 Olympics would still go ahead; in the end, I think it’s now being postponed to 2021? Unsure how they’re going to organise all the two week self isolation period and contact tracing stuff … I vaguely remember hearing that all the athletes who’d already qualified for the 2020 Olympics would automatically requalify for the 2021 event; I suppose that’s fair but will any athletes that didn’t qualify originally miss out if they’ll suddenly reach their peak in time for the 2021 Olympics?

Unfortunately, this year was the first year when the poor Broncos collected the wooden spoon. *cringe* We’d started the year so well, too, with consecutive wins … Well next year we’ve got a new coach; hopefully we’ll lift the premiership trophy come 2021! The last time we won was back in 2006 … we had a real shot several years ago but then idiot Ben Hunt dropped the ball from the kickoff and gifted the Cowboys with a perfect field goal shot attempt and trust JT to nail it perfectly … XD On a brighter note, I’m very relieved that the Maroons have regained the Origin shield! After Queensland won EIGHT CONSECUTIVE YEARS, the smelly Blues managed to scrape *two* consecutive years and they were already so cocky! Please note that for our eight year winning streak we were ALWAYS HUMBLE, giving the Blues credit for the competition they had provided but when NSW managed to win one year after already winning the previous year they were immediately so UP THEMSELVES, going on about themselves like they’re the next best thing since sliced bread! Public enemy number one Paul Gallen even had the audacity to claim that the Maroons team for 2020 were the ‘worst he’d ever seen’; I really laughed my head off when the Queensland captain Daly Cherry-Evans (my cheeky/nasty mother likes to call him Daly Cherry-Blossom XD) lifted the Origin shield on behalf of the ‘worst team ever’! Please note that our ‘worst team ever’ still managed to regain the Origin shield; fingers crossed that we can deny the smelly Blues the trophy for another eight years at least! XD

Everything else wise: last year, I was exploding with excitement that Minions2 was coming to the cinemas come June/July 2020; firstly because everyone who only knows me very slightly should be totally aware that I’m simply besotted with the yellow, jellybean-shaped minions of Despicable Me and secondly because the friend who’d taken me to see the first Minions movie in GOLD CLASS had promised to do so again when the second movie. Unfortunately, because of COVID-19, the release date was pushed back one year but that’s alright because that means I can be infatuated with those stupid little creatures for one more year! (I call them stupid because even though they try so hard to be evil they’re just so bloody incompetent they screw up everything they’re trying to muck up XD) I suppose after Minions2 comes out that’ll be the end of the franchise; it’s been one whole DECADE since the first Despicable Me movie came out and I suppose it’s time for me to find something new to be obsessed about. XD Even the little kids at church know that Aunty Em loves the minions! XD

 

One thing that I shared about in my Xmas Greetings to everyone this year was the scary traffic incident my carer Hannah and I were involved in back in like June. When we were T-boned (silly Hannah had forgotten to check both ways before turning) I honestly thought it was gonna be the end for me, that precisely at that moment a car was gonna zoom up Underwood Rd and hit our car; I’d die coz I was sitting in the death/passenger seat. I’ve read before that for some people, their entire life flashes before their eyes; since I’m slow (mother honestly LEMME GET DROPPED ON MY HEAD AS A BABY XD and then the cruel and unfaithful God totally destroyed my life with the disabling brain injury ><) nothing went through my head except “Oh sh*t, the next car that comes zooming up Underwood Rd’s gonna hit me and I’m gonna die because I’m sitting in the death seat … gosh I hope it won’t hurt and I hope it’ll be over quickly … dad I love you the most, forever; will you be okay without me? Mother, you’ll be fine, knowing you, you’ll prolly chuck a party and invite everyone to attend that you’ve got your life back coz since you’re always bitching at me that since you’ve gotta drive me to appointments/whatnot you don’t have a social life anymore, but I’ve always been a complete daddy’s girl and he might just miss me some, you know? Please be nice to my dearest dad after I’m gone!

 

That’s actually the third NDE I’ve survived. The first one happened when I was still inside mother’s tummy; I’d been such a messy sleeper even before I was born I’d kicked and twisted around so much I’d actually caught my umbilical cord around my neck and was STRANGLING myself! O_o Luckily mother could sense something was wrong and saw the doctor; even when the doctor said to mother go home nothing’s wrong your baby will come out in one week or so mother INSISTED something was wrong and the doctor had better find out what! The doctor consented and hooked mother up to some monitor that listened to my heartbeat for one hour and mother’s suspicions were confirmed; after fasting for eight hours she went under the knife and I was born by emergency caesarean section. Meaning I owe my life to mother more than the usual ‘I owe my life to my parents because they copulated together and made me’.

My second NDE happened in 2007, when the cruel and unfaithful God totally destroyed my life with the disabling brain injury. People have told me before that I’m lucky to still be alive and surely I am, but seriously, what kinda life is this? Surely, surely, LESS of a life; were I an ostrich I’d like nothing better than to stick my head into the sand and DENY that even this world exists … only that’s not gonna work, is it? I’m not THAT far removed from reality! XD I’d always been nervous (well, terrified XD) that the cruel and unfaithful God would go third time lucky and do me in; when mother once heard me say that, she laughed, jeered and scoffed at me, saying that God doesn’t need three chances because what He wants happens right away … well this year I’ve survived my third NDE, meaning that God really didn’t do me in. hopefully that means I’m gonna live a long life; I’ve always said I don’t plan to kick the bucket until I receive the letter from the monarch of England (presumably King George?) congratulating me on reaching the ripe old age of 100! I’ll go peacefully in my sleep that night, but not before then, alright?? XD

In my Xmas Greetings to everyone last year, I’d shared with everyone how delighted I was that I’d finally achieved the TWENTY-FIFTH time that year where I’d achieved one straight week of consecutive awesome sleeps (where I bid my teddy sweet dreams, fell asleep and didn’t wake again until the Sun had risen sufficiently for me to see the time on the clock mounted on the wall; I’m ridiculously short-sighted and without my glasses if you gave me a sheet of A4 paper with font size twelve writing to read I’d haveta hold the paper so close – literally touching my nose – to be able to read it). This year, I’m terribly excited to report that I’ve actually managed to exceed that; I’ve somehow managed to achieve one straight week of awesome sleeps THIRTY-ONE times!! :D I’m just so sodding relieved that I get such good quality sleep nowadays; while I don’t think I’ll ever just ‘get over’ the trauma of the hellish days, weeks and months I spent in the insane asylum (more commonly known to everyone else as the Brain Injuries Rehab Unit of the Princess Alexandra hospital XD when the cruel and unfaithful God plagued me nightly with multiple horrifying nightmares I can only hope He’s found someone He hates more than He hates me and will go destroy their life and leave me alone to pick up the shattered shards of my life …

Ohh!! Several years ago, in my Xmas Greetings I remember sharing with everyone about how I’d finally started dreaming again. Nice, normal dreams, not the horrifying nightmares that cruel and unfaithful God continuously and plagued me with back when I was still imprisoned in the insane asylum. What frustrated me immensely was that in my dreams, I never reached the FOOD. You know the saying ‘the way to my heart is through my stomach’? Well, my personal version is: ‘the way to my heart is through my stomach. Feed me and I will love you forever.’ XD Many dreams I *nearly* reached the food but always woke up before finally stuffing it into my mouth! My fat tummy was so mad with me that one morning, after I’d woken up whilst dreaming I was walking to a SEAFOOD BUFFET to get some food she threatened to throw up! Me: ah, I’ve not eaten since dinner last night. You’re empty; I don’t think you’ve got anything to chuck up. XD But I was fast losing hope because so many times I’d come so close and yet was still so far … My Toastmasters friend Steph encouraged me to dare to keep dreaming because she believed I would reach the food one day and this year, I finally DID!! :D I think this year I enjoyed three dreams where I was happily stuffing my gob. XD When I finally, finally reached the food in my dreams, the next day I was so excited that when I logged into Facebook I immediately opened Messenger and SCREAMED st Steph, I FINALLY REACHED THE FOOD!!! Then I came to my senses, greeted her more appropriately with good afternoon and then calmly explained why I’d been that excited. XD Steph was awesome, saying I knew you’d do it and then suggested I share this achievement at our next Toastmasters meeting! See, the club I’ve attended since like 2012 is called Young Achievers at QUT; a club tradition’s that at the beginning of every meeting, there’s a call for achievements, where members and guests are invited to share what they’ve achieved since the last meeting. It can be something huge like I’ve just finished my PhD or something tiny like I lost my keys but I finally found them. Obviously I politely declined her suggestion, that achievement just sounds silly. XD 

On the topic of dreams, this year I didn’t start dreaming until January the 20th but ended up remembering and recording seventy-four dreams! The oddest one was how I’d somehow became the PRIME MINISTER of NEW ZEALAND. XD The funniest one was how I wasn’t disabled anymore; instead I was walking along the tarmac with my small group members along some tarmac for our SKY DIVING trip! See, the lads from my small group are crazy; every now and again one will suggest let’s go skydiving for our next small group social! Me: ah, no thanks guys; I’m honestly TERRIFIED of heights; you’ll haveta push me screaming outta the plane and afterwards you’ll haveta gimme a burial coz I’ll have perished from a heart attack. XD In this dream we’re all walking the tarmac ready to board the plane for our skydiving trip and I’m feeling nervous (well alright, terrified XD) about my imminent death. Suddenly the dream fast forwards and now we’re all walking away, having finished the skydiving trip! Only I’m still alive … figured I must’ve clung to the sides of the plane hard enough and screamed with terror loud enough for my small group members to change their minds about pushing me outta the plane. XD

This year, the parents started demanding that I get my own cutlery before every meal. Fair enough; since I’m practically too disabled to participate in any meal preparation and cooking myself I suppose the least I can do is get myself cutlery, right? I decided that every month, I’d just hope for *one* little day where I’m exempt from getting myself cutlery for *any* three meals of the day! I’ve had spectacular success with that; while many days this year I’ve had to get myself cutlery for one/two meals, somehow I’ve managed to evade getting myself cutlery for ALL THREE MEALS in one day! :D Not expecting my good luck to continue; will prolly haveta begin 2021 by immediately having to get myself cutlery for all three meals. XDQ

Have I reflected enough about 2020? It’s just past 11pm now; I’m tuning into ABC’s livestream and right now Sydney’s fireworks are exploding all over the place coz they’re one hour ahead of us.

Am I supposed to make any New Years’ resolutions? Apparently, most of them get broken in the first month of the new year anyway. XD

Obviously I hope next year I’ll manage to remain upright all year and not fall over like I was idiotic enough to do twice this year! Right now though I’m still enjoying my two weeks of annual leave; should you come over and suggest I do any therapy for you I will either (1) politely ignore you or (2) politely pretend that you don’t exist. XD

Will haveta chase up Axiom College (I’m doing the online study through them) very early next year and see can I get them to lemme resume online study. Still hoping I’ll find steady, paid work next year; remember, I’m willing to do ANYTHING (even wash toilets XD) as long as I can do it whilst seated and it gets me paid properly. If you’re curious, last time I checked I typed at 31WPM with 100% accuracy using one hand.

Wonder when the COVID-19 vaccine will get rolled out? Would love for this pandemic to blow over and normal international travel to resume; if I can ever get my hands on an outdoors electric wheelchair I can finally return to Hong Kong and visit all my beloved and awesome friends!

Less than ten minutes till 2021 arrives … guess I’ll wrap up these 2021 reflections here! What a year it’s been! Hoping 2021 will be just as fun and eventful but less dangerous. XD Sorry for not proofreading this post properly first, it’s nearly midnight! Should you read these reflections and come across any mistakes please Facebook Messenger me and I’ll correct the mistake. XD

Next post here … well, if anything happens toms I suppose I can blog about New Years’ Day but if not, I suppose I’ll just cya when I cya!

Cheers,

Em. ^^

Wednesday, December 30, 2020

Christmas And Boxing Day 2020

 

Well, that’s the silly season over and done with for 2020. Here’s how I spent it:

Christmas Day: even the Christmas before I was born, when I was still inside mother’s tummy, I attended church. Mother insists that we attend church every Christmas Day and every year, come December the 25th, our family will be attending some church service. I know of people who aren’t regular church-goers but they too will attend church for Christmas day. This year, however, marked the very first year where we didn’t attend church on Christmas Day. Since BCAC doesn’t have a Christmas service, for many years we’ve always attended the one at Redeemer Lutheran College. Only this year, due to COVID-19, it either wasn’t on/dad was afraid about community transmission and wouldn’t drive mother there. May I say it was a novelty not having to attend church for Christmas without getting lambasted? Like, not having to sing any songs that I mean nothing of the words I’m singing (like, if we’re singing about how God’s powerful and all-knowing you can’t deny that, but if I’m singing that God’s loving/compassionate/whatever that’s just a load of bullcrap from my experience ><) The parents did find a service livestream to attend, somewhere in Hebron. Since I only did geography for six months twenty years ago, got a B- and never touched the subject again, I’ve got schocking geography skills and dunno where hardly any country is. Hebron … umm, isn’t that like in Israel? If so, how could mother have found a livestream Christmas service to watch there? Apart from New Zealand, every place is behind Australia timewise and would it even be Christmas Day there yet? When they parents turned up the volume of the livestream really loud, I pushed my bedroom door closed because I’d planned to continue sleeping for a bit more. However, only several minutes later, mother pushed open my bedroom door and tried to gimme some eye goo (I wear eyegel for my right eye because post disabling brain injury my right eyelid cannot fully shut; the eye gel just keeps my eye lubricated). I mutter sleepily @ her, “I thought you said you’d help me up after you and dad finished watching service. It must’ve been a really short service, if you’re already in my room?”

Mother screeches back at me, “We started watching the service but then they had technical difficulties and the livestream was cut!”

Well, I couldn’t do anything about that, but my sleep-in plan was cancelled. No biggie.

After getting myself mostly independently kitted for the day, I brush teeth, use the bathroom and head out to the dining room for breakfast. Ooh, how fancy, dad’s cooked omelette and toast; that’s usually Saturday’s special breakfast!

Breakfast finished, I use the bathroom, then sit at the computer and read my daily Bible passages (I’m followingf a Bible reading plan where I’ll read the entire Bible in one year) before tootling online for myself. Usually channels Seven and Nine have a morning news bulletin @ 11am/11:30am on the weekdays but there was nothing today … presuming coz it was Christmas and therefore a public holiday?

 

When the parents summoned me for lunch, I used the bathroom and then joined them at the dining table. Breakfast was great but I was a lil disappointed at lunch: after getting myself a spoon for lunch, mother placed a bowl of boiled, bland and practically tasteless rice leftovers in front of me. XD

Lunch over, I took my bowl over to the sink and returned online. Dad washed the dishes and mother headed upstairs to hit the sack for her long afternoon nap, which often stretches until the Sun has set and it’s night.

I literally sat in front of the computer until dinner was called! For some reason, mother restricts me to only a PISSY two hours of internet time per day; believe me, it’s hardly enough time to check my e-mail, use Facebook, blog and play my favourite game, Bejeweled. Still, I’m careful never to exceed two hours, because if mother catches me doing that, she’ll use it as reason to deny me the full two hours another day. Once my most important two hours of the day are up, I usually just open a Microsoft Word document open and write. Blog posts, GCCW homework, whatever catches my fancy.

·                     When I’m summoned over for dinner, I grab myself a spoon and join the parents at the dining table.Dinner was rice, lotsa yummy cauliflower, one tiny strip of chicken, two wee slices of cheese and some pork. Dinner was spooned down with one bowl of soup; after I took my bowl over to the sink I returned online, visiting the bathroom once more @ 9pm and then letting mother boot me off to bed @ the ridiculously early time of 9:45pm. All in all, a very quiet Christmas.

Boxing Day: another awesome night’s sleep for me, since after I bid my teddy sweet dreams and fell asleep, I didn’t wake again until 5:25am. One of my favourite thing about the Summer months are how early the Sun rises; come the middle of Winter, it’s often pitch black until like 6:30am!

That morning, when mother lets herself into my room to gimme some eye gel, I immediately sit up, give her a great big hug and wish her a very happy birthday!

Since it’s Saturday, dad cooks omelette for breakfast, and I munch some on one slice of dry (unbuttered) toast. After a bathroom trip, we hit the Boxing Day sales! My heart sinks when dad refuses to put my manual wheelchair into the boot, which means that even before our shopping trip has started, my day has been ruined. See, nowadays I walk with the intention of reaching the next place where I can sit down and be safe; without my manual wheelchair to sit and enjoy windowshopping/browsing at things I will only keep walking and hopefully find the next place where I may sit. *sigh*

To avoid all the really big crowded places, dad tootles mother and I off to somewhere like Wynnum Plaza! He says he wants to see if he can find me a pair of sneakers. See, nowadays I usually wear a pair of sturdy hiking sneakers, coz since I must wear an orthotic left foot if I am to walk at all, the shoe must be very sturdy around the sides. Dad found one pair he wanted me to try; I obediently plodded a lap aaround the store before reporting that the sole of the shoe seemed very thin. Like, I remember trying on new shoes in years past where I was immediately struck with how padded the new shoe was! Don’t they only wear thin after you’ve worn them for awhile?

Because of that, I didn’t buy the shoes. Instead, dad tootled us off to another shopping centre, this one that actually had retailers. I ducked into Big W and bought two new books, since my Australian godmother had sent me a thirty dollar gift voucher. I bought Jodi Picoult’s latest novel and Barack Obama’s memoirs!

Lunch was by some river? Dad had brought a whole eski of foodstuffs and made us healthy salad sandwiches for lunch.

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Our last stop was some electrical appliance store like JB HI-FI, coz mother needed to buy herself a new mobile. Ever since the beginning of the year, she’d reported that her phone was playing up and slowly dying … only by Boxing Day, it still hadn’t karked it! In the end, mother lost patience and just bought herself a new smartphone. XD Dad dropped mother off at the entrance and then parked all the way at the very end of the carpark, before insisting I walk all the way to the store with him. When I finally arrive, mother appears and orders me to walk all the way back to the car! Dunno what was with that … *sigh*

Anyway, thus ended our shopping trip! Dad tootled us home, mother hit the sack and I tootled online.

Later, I showered, and after dinner, I opened my Christmas presents! My favourite one was one from Kim; she’d found me a minion snow globe! All in all, a good day~

Apologies for any spelling/grammatical mistakes you found in this post; I’ve been slack because it’s already the 30th! Must publish this tonight and tomorrow bash out my Reflections for 2020, coz it’s NYE tomorrow! Cheers~

Friday, December 11, 2020

XMas Greetings 2020

 Heylo everybody! We started a new decade this year; hope 2020 has been as eventful for you as it has been for me!

 

For my dearest dad, work is busiest for him around December. Often, he’ll not arrive home from work until like 8pm! Conversely, January becomes the quiet time for the company he works for and often dad will take a week’s break and he, mother and I will all go for a short holiday somewhere.

This year, when mother started researching around where we could go holiday, she originally reported to dad and I, “Every where’s on fire!” Remember how much of the country had been impacted by devastating bushfires at the beginning of the year? Many places had been affected by the bushfires and many tourist destinations had been closed. Eventually, she decided that Adelaide was less burnt than other places like Queensland and booked us to go down there for just under one week.

We spent three nights in one motel and the other three in another. The first place we stayed at gave us two beds between three people: a queen-sized sofa bed and a king-sized other bed! My dearest dad took the queen-sized sofa bed for himself, instructing mother and I to share the king-sized bed. That first night, after we’d both climbed into bed, mother and I both marvelled at how big the bed was. The next morning, when mother rolled outta bed and entered the bathroom to go brush teeth, I luxuriated in having a KING-SIZED BED ALL TO MYSELF and curiously spread-eagled myself to see if I could touch the edges of the bed. Then I excitedly screeched, “Mother! Come look!”

Mother appears with toothbrush sticking outta her mouth. “What?”

“Oh mum, how cool’s this: the king-sized bed’s so massive that even when I spreadeagle myself I can’t touch the edges!” I beam at her. Mother just laughs at me for being so easily excitable. XD

After our nearing-weeklong holiday, back home in Brisbane I experimentally spreadeagle myself again. Bang! My arm and leg immediately hit the wall.  When mother enters my room in the morning, I mock-whine at her, “Mother, I thought you got me a king bed too, but how come when I try to spreadeagle myself my left arm and leg immediately hit the wall? Didn’t you buy me a king bed??” Mother just smirks right back at me. “Sure I did. King SINGLE.” XD

 

For the past five/six years, I’ve shared lunch with my church pastor and his wife once a week. Well, Pastor Grace mostly, and Pastor Chris when he’s free. We’ve been meeting regularly ever since their daughter was in her baby stroller and look – she’s just started primary school this year!

At Rice Paper Vietnamese Cuisine, we all spend some time browsing the menu. In the end, Pastor Chris and I select the same dish: stir-fry chicken ho fan coz great minds obviously think alike, don’tcha reckon? XD

I suppose our dishes arrive simultaneously because we ordered the same thing. I’ve picked up my fork, said itadakimasu and am just about to start digging in when Pastor Chris sticks his palm literally centimetres from my face and commands, “STOP.”

I literally just freeze; for a split second I honestly think he’s going to gimme like a death sentence! XD

You see, Pastor Chris is usually a gentle, soft-spoken man. Usually, the most authoritative thing you hear coming from his mouth’s something like, “Guys, after service today please clear the hall immediately because the ushers need to reset the hall for baptism, etc.” but what I heard from him that day was absolutely a *direct order* and I honestly just froze!

I’m looking at Pastor Chris like a deer caught in the headlights; he’s holding his fork also, and he waves it in the direction to the side of my plate. My eyes follow the direction of the movement and cripes – on the side of the plate is a handful of crushed NUTS!

Some may know that I’ve had a mild nut allergy from birth. Luckily, it’s not severe; should I come into accidental contact with any nuts I won’t go into anaphylaxis and die in three minutes without an EpiPen; just gimme some water and be prepared for some very swollen lips after about ten minutes but I’ll be alright afterwards.

I’m like, “Woah, I totally didn’t see; thanks for noticing! Um, should I just like scrape them onto the table?” Pastor Chris says he’ll take it, so I push my plate towards him and just sit back and watch as he carefully scoops and picks out all the nuts, before instructing me to start eating from the other side of the plate, where there were no nuts. He’s done a perfect job; I finish the dish and detect zero traces of nuts whatsoever. Thanks also to Pastor Grace who contacts me that afternoon just to check I’m fine after potentially ingesting some nuts. I’m very grateful to be part of a loving church family who always keeps an eye out for each other. Still, I don’t mind if I never hear Pastor Chris’ Voice of Authority ever again; I’m potentially the wimpiest person in existence and when he like stuck his palm in my face and ordered STOP it honestly frightened the living daylights outta me! XD

 

I can’t help it. From the moment I wake up, till my head touches the pillow at night, I’m freaked out that I’ll fall over. That’s because the cruel and unfaithful God has left me so frigging disabled that were I stupid enough to fall over, I simply wouldn’t have the capability to get myself back upright again; I’d be sitting on my butt on the floor waiting for somebody to come across to where I’ve fallen and then hold out an arm, asking please to be pulled back upright. Every time I sit down, 99.9% of me fast-forwards to when I’ll haveta get up again, that I might fall awkwardly and hurt my right hand/arm. If that were to happen, I’d be beyond screwed, because the right’s my only more-or-less functioning side that I do everything with, and if I were to injure her and take her outta commission too… *shudders at the very thought*

For the past couple of years, I’ve been fortunate enough not to suffer a proper ‘fall’, although I did slip down on the wet tiled floor once and trip forward and right-kneeplant (thankfully not faceplant XD) near the kitchen another time. Third time unlucky for me, then.

I’m having what I rather unflatteringly call a ‘torture’ session’ with my ‘bad’ physio. Have I explained before the difference between my ‘good’ physios and the ‘bad’ physio? I call the physio I do @ the University of Queensland in the NAB clinic my ‘good’ physios. NAB stands for Neurological, Ageing and Balance. I go for the Neurological part because the cruel and unfaithful God smote me down with a brain injury and totally destroyed my life back in 2007 and I go for the Balance part because post disabling brain injury,
I have super sh*tty balance whenever I struggle to walk. I don’t go for the Ageing part because I started doing physio there when I was twenty-one and surely that’s too young to be ageing?? XD

Anyways, the NAB clinic physio students are my ‘good’ physios because they understand how I’m always freaked out about falling and they’ve promised they’ll never lemme fall, because were that to happen, the teacher would see, come over, fail them and make them repeat a whole five weeks here and gosh, they wouldn’t want that to happen! Hence why they’d never lemme fall …

My ‘bad’ physio, however, says he’ll lemme fall; he’ll just make sure I won’t hurt myself if and when I do fall. Well, to date, he’s dropped me for two sprained ankles, oww…

But back to my first fall for 2020. Vincent has my affected hand doing some reaching exercise; he sticks his hand somewhere and I’ve got to get my hand to touch his.

Some may know that post brain injury I’ve developed complete left hemianopia, that is, total loss of left side vision. Vincent knows this full well but chooses to stick his hand to my left side and so far behind me that I’ve gotta lean slightly backwards to reach his hand. Bad move. I must’ve leant too far backwards because the next thing I feel’s me falling backwards. Usually I feel safe falling backwards because you know what they say, right? Fat butt, good cushioning! XD However, since mother is forever harping on at me to lean forward and I remembered her demand so leaned forward as I was going down. ‘Twas a good thing I did too, because as I thunked down my head was literally only centimetres from the wall; had I not leaned forward I’d have *smashed* my head against the wall and goodness knows where I’d be know … probably another stint in the insane asylum (my pet nickname for the Brain Injuries Rehab Unit of the Princess Alexandra hospital XD); heaven forbid! ><

Seeing as I hadn’t injured myself, Vincent immediately hauls me to my feet and calmly instructs that I continue doing the task I was attempting before I took a tumble. Me, I’m filthy with him, grousing, “You jerk! You lemme fall!” The insufferable man smirks at me. “Yup, you fell like a big wintermelon (say ‘dai dong gua’ in Canto). But you can’t get up me for that, because I’ve only ever promised to catch you if you fell forward and to the left, but you fell backwards and to the right.” Well, there’s no use crying over spilt milk. I can’t change the fact that I totally stacked it in March this year. I probably shouldn’t share how I was idiotic enough to totally stack it again in June and just say I’d best continue working on my mobility and learning how to stay upright!

 

COVID-19’s something that has truly impacted the world this year; even though it started last year things didn’t really start getting bad until this year. I’ll confess to being so stupid I actually naively asked my church friend, “How come I’ve never heard of the first eighteen COVID’s before? I know I’m terribly thick post-stroke, but surely I would’ve heard of one of the previous eighteen COVIDs before this 19th one came along?” My friend had laughed gently before letting me in on what everybody else was seemingly already aware of. “COVID-19 started in 2019.” Well, duh, of course! Don’t worry, there’s a perfectly legitimate excuse for my stupidity: I really WAS dropped on my head as a baby! XD When things started getting cancelled/moved online left, right and centre, I remember grumbling on Facebook: book club has been cancelled. Toastmasters have been cancelled. Writers group has been moved online. Why can’t blasted physio get cancelled too??  Sheesh, there’s no rest for the weary, honestly. Finally, as the coronavirus situation worsened in Brisbane, even physio was affected. Firstly, hydrotherapy was cancelled because all public pools were closed. I was overjoyed, because (1) I’ve always hated getting wet and (2) I’ve not noticed any physical improvement in me whatsoever after doing this seemingly-useless therapy week after week for mother. Next, my ‘bad’ physio shut down for awhile and again, I was overjoyed because I suppose I was still cranky at him for letting me fall earlier this year. Finally, even my ‘good’ physio went online for awhile using Zoom.

We’ve actually been very lucky in Queensland; while slightly over one thousand cases have been recorded, the death rate has been only in the single digits. Hopefully the vaccine can get rolled out ASAP and things will settle down.

 

About halfway through the year, my ‘good’ physio starts me on a block of intensive physio, where instead of attending once weekly for one hour, I attend thrice weekly for four hours. Wednesdays were a double whammy: two straight hours of physio from 9am till 11am. That meant the carer would come at 8:15am to pick me up and drive me to UQ; normally, trips to UQ only take about twenty-five minutes but a 9am appointment meant I’d most likely get stuck in peak hour traffic so definitely leave by 8:15am.

That fateful morning, when my carer Hannah starts the drive to UQ, for some reason she doesn’t listen to her GPS who says to turn right at the top of Alan Cresc. into Gaskell St. and turns left instead. That’s alright, the GPS is a smart fella; it immediately readjusts her route, telling Hannah to turn right into Underwood Road next. After Hannah checks one side, she starts pulling out into Underwood Rd. when suddenly, BLAM! We get T-boned! Poor Hannah shrieks on impact (which was totally understandable because ‘twas her side of the car that got hit); I didn’t react outwardly but as our car was smashed sideways into the oncoming lane of traffic my immediate thought reaction’s “Oh, sh*t (excuse my French; in my defence I was silent but this was truly what I thought XD) the next car that comes zooming up Underwood Rd.’s gonna hit me and I’m gonna die coz I’m sitting in the death seat … gosh I hope it won’t hurt and it’ll be over quickly … dad, I love you; will you be okay without me? Mother, you’ll be fine without me; knowing you, you’ll prolly chuck a party and invite everyone to come celebrate that you’ve got your life back coz you’re always bitching at me that because you haveta drive me to appointments and whatnot you don’t have a social life anymore, but I’ve always been a complete daddy’s girl and he might just miss me some, you know? Please be nice to my dearest dad after I’m gone!

In the next second the other car has smashed ours across the moving lanes of traffic onto the side of the road; once the car jerks to a stop I realise that somehow, miraculously, I’m still alive. Still, no time to dwell on that; I immediately lean forward, hit the hazard lights and urgently tell Hannah, “I’m uninjured. Are you alright too/should I call the ambulance for you right away?” Poor Hannah immediately burs into tears. “Oh no, it’s all my fault!” She wails. “I forgot to check both ways!”

“NO!” I yell back at her; I needed to know whether or not she had been injured! “That doesn’t matter; tell me NOW; are you hurt??”

When Hannah sobs back she’s fine, I next rip open my bag and grab my mobile, speed dialling for home. No time to worry about Hannah, then. When mother answers, I speak immediately. “Mum, we’re fine,” I begin urgently (didn’t wanna freak her out too badly, see XD), “But Hannah and I just got T-boned at the intersection of Underwood and Gaskell. You’d better get out here right now.” Poor mother must’ve been shocked; she double-checked to make sure that we were both uninjured before saying she’d come out immediately. That call done, I tap a still-wailing Hannah on the shoulder and say gently, “Hey. We need to ring CODA (they’re the company who employs carers like Hannah and sends her to look after me) and let them know what just happened. Will you ring CODA or may I?” Poor Hannah doesn’t stop bawling; I take it to mean that I should ring, then. Dialling their usual number, only when their answering machine kicks in and says opening hours are from 9am till 5pm do I realise that since it’s only just past 8:15am they wouldn’t have opened yet! Luckily, I remember their on-call emergency number too and immediately tried dialling that; you cannot believe how relieved I was when someone answered! I mean, what would I have said if I’d been instructed to leave a message? “Um, hi, good morning, it’s Emily Chan here. Um, Hannah and I just got t-boned at the intersection of Gaskell St. and Underwood Rd.; could someone please come and save us? K, thanks, bye.” XD

As with mother, when Davina answered, I immediately reassured her that we were fine but then added we just got t-boned at the intersection of Underwood Rd. and Gaskell St.; you can probably hear poor Hannah bawling in the background …

Huge thanks to Davina who remained so calm/didn’t lose her head/anything; that really helped me keep myself calm too because honestly, I was freaking out a bit myself! It’s not everyday you get T-boned, you know! XD

After first checking again (just like mother XD) that we were both uninjured, she asked to speak with Hannah. I shook a still wailing Hannah gently on the shoulder and said to her, “Hannah. Hey, it’s gonna be alright. I’ve just rung CODA and Davina wants to talk to you. Just take my mobile and talk to her. It’s gonna be alright.”

As Hannah does so, a uniformed woman rushes up to my car window. “I’m a doctor.” She tells me breathlessly. I’ve just finished the overnight shift and was driving home when I witnessed the crash; I pulled over right away to see if anyone was injured and needed help.” I thanked this lady doctor sincerely and said we were both fine, but that Hannah might be stuck in her seat because the car that had T-boned us had hit near her door. By this time, the driver of the car that had T-boned us had also come over to check that we were okay. Having finished her call with Davina, Hannah passed my mobile back to me, but when the driver of the car that had t-boned us asked were we both alright, she burst into tears again, wailing that the accident was all her fault because she’d forgotten to check both ways before turning … before she could have another meltdown, I quickly enter the conversation, explaining that I’ve got a physical disability and that Hannah’s my carer who was driving me to my appointment this morning. Then I add umm, should someone please call emergency services? We’re both fine but Hannah might be stuck in her seat coz your car t-boned ours near where her car door is… The driver of the car that t-boned us said don’t worry; my wife’s already ringing and help will be on the way very soon. He was actually very nice; since Hannah’s car door had been jammed shut by the force of the impact his car had made with ours, he had opened the rear passenger door, reached around and patted Hannah’s shoulder soothingly until emergency services arrive, lights blazing and sirens wailing. The firies arrive first; seeing the damage done to Hannah’s car door and the fact that she can’t open it and get out prompts the firemen to discuss the need to cut her out. Next the ambos arrive hot on the heels of the fire engine, again with lights blazing and sirens wailing. When the paramedic approaches my open car window, I tell him that we’re both fine but that Hannah’s car door is stuck and she can’t get out. He walks over to Hannah’s side of the car and confirms that with her while pulling at the door. Yup, she’s definitely stuck. Then the ambo comes up with the smart idea of getting Hannah to climb from the driver’s seat into the backseat and exit the car that way! While she’s in the process of doing that, he looks at me. “Stay here,” he instructs. “I’ll come back for you next.” Uh, I’m extremely physically disabled and am in no condition to just open the car door and waltz away without falling flat on my arse? Oh, wait, the ambo doesn’t know that! When he returns for me, he beckons me out. As I’m manoeuvring myself awkwardly from the car I explain to him that I’ve got a pre-existing brain injury that’s totally unrelated to what just happened today and that while I can walk some, I’m just terribly bad at it. The ambo leads me to a waiting stretcher and bids me lie down. Me: ah, aren’t I meant to walk and climb into the ambulance just like how Hannah’s about to do in front of us? You can see that I can walk some, and if mother sees me getting a free ride when I could be walking like everyone else she’ll bite my head off. The paramedic replies yes, but since you walk slowly because of your brain injury it’s best if you just get onto the stretcher and we clear the crash site ASAP because traffic’s already building up around here. Fair enough. I clamber awkwardly onto the stretcher, the ambo loads me into the back of the ambulance and the driver in the front starts driving. I’m presuming we’ll go to the QE2, because that’s where I was carted off to when I first collapsed with my brain injury back in 2007 but then the ambo informs us we’re going to the P.A.

After we arrive, one of the doctors of the emergency department comes over and says he’s just gonna check that we’re both alright. Seeing that Hannah’s closer to him than I am, he starts with her first, tapping here and there, asking does here hurt? Does there hurt? Hannah reported some mild shoulder pain (which was totally understandable, considering we’d been t-boned on her side of the car) and the doctor does some gentle manipulations, again asking his does here hurt and does there hurt questions. Then he gets Hannah to perform movements like standing on one foot with both hands behind your back; I remember thinking gosh I hope he doesn’t ask me to do that coz I’ve obviously got sh*tty balance post brain injury and would most likely just topple over if I attempted such postures! XD

Satisfied that Hannah’s uninjured, the doctor next approaches me. Before he can start tapping my back and asking his does this hurt and does that hurt questions, I quickly explain to the doctor that I’ve got a pre-existing brain injury that’s totally unrelated to what happened today and while I can stand and walk some, I very much doubt I’d be able to do what Hannah just did when she stood on one leg with both hands behind her back and not topple over … luckily, the doctor seemed content to lemme stay seated in the stretcher that the ambo had initially loaded me into while he did his tapping and asking did this hurt and did that hurt questions. He also ran both hands along my four limbs; when he encounters my AFO inside my jeans he pauses; I quickly explain that I wear an orthotic and did he wanna see/take off? Just that if he removed the orthotic I wouldn’t be walking anywhere … I reach over and start rolling up the pant leg, but once the doctor sees the outline of the AFO he goes don’t worry it’s all good.

Deciding that we’re both okay, the doctor goes and prints us both a discharge letter each, before leaving with our thanks and byes. Shortly after, both mother and Davina arrive; Davina to drive Hannah back to our place so she can collect her tank and mother to drive me home. Obviously, the Camry was written off after being T-boned; cars can survive a bruised bum but when I saw a photo of the Camry even I knew he was a goner … the entire side slightly behind the driver’s seat had been crushed in. Still, I’m immensely grateful that Hannah was basically uninjured; had she gone a little slower/the driver that t-boned us been a little quicker; the impact would’ve been precisely over her car door! O_o Cars can be replaced but people can’t …

One more story for 2020: in October, dad suddenly takes mother and I for a short holiday to Ballandean for five days and four nights! You’ve never heard of the place before either? XD It’s somewhere  near Stanthorpe.

It’s also very close to the border of QLD and NSW; one day, we had lunch at a café that was actually right along the border, meaning part of the café was in NSW and the other part was in QLD! After the obligatory photo with one foot in either state, to get back to our rented car, we had to walk a short distance inside enemy territory to reach where we’d parked our rented car. Obviously post disabling brain injury I walk very slowly – I’m just grateful that I can walk at all, considering the cruel and unfaithful God had originally intended for me to not even stand again, let alone walk >< - but you can bet for the about five minutes when I was walking inside enemy territory I tried to ambulate as fast as I was able; I was rather apprehensive that suddenly a policeman would come flying out of somewhere, crash tackle me to the ground and have me stranded behind enemy lines forever! Phew, I’m safely back in Queensland now … XD

 

Well it’s exactly two weeks until the 25th; I just want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and a safe and prosperous New Year. Obviously 2020 has been unlike any other year we’ve ever experienced, but I hope your 2021 will be filled with lotsa fun and adventure! Thankfully with the technology available to everyone nowadays it’s much easier to stay in touch so I look forward to remaining in contact with everyone over the next year, whether it be in-person or just via the internet.

The second year of the new decade awaits!

Cheers,

Em. ^^

P.S. Next post here … prolly a post detailing how I spent Christmas and Boxing Day this year~

Monday, November 30, 2020

XMas Wishlist 2020

Heylo Santa! Haven’t heard from you for nearly one whole year; hope you’ve rested up after your epic present delivery haul last Christmas and are ready to go all over again, because I’ll let you know first up: the last two years haven’t been very good present-wise for me. Horrid mother snipes at me that I’m ‘too old’ for presents but personally I reckon she’s being a total party pooper and talking a whole lot of bullpoo! Surely as long as I’m energetic enough to write you a comprehensive wishlist of everything I want for Christmas I can’t be ‘too old’ for presents, right?? Technically I’ve celebrated Christmas ALL YEAR this year, because after I decorated the Christmas tree all pretty for you last year, dad didn’t take it down this year! I’m aware that most families pack away their Christmas tree sometime in between Boxing Day and New Year, but usually in my house our tree stays up until March the 19th, when I’m like, “Ah, dad, it’s my birthday tomorrow; might you wanna pack away our Christmas tree yet?” Only this year, dad said he was ‘busy’ (dunno with what) and just shoved the tree into a corner of the house! Not that this affected me in the slightest; I just took it as permission to happily celebrate Christmas and sing secular Christmas carols the WHOLE YEAR AROUND. XD Anyways, here’s what I’m hoping you’ll bring me for Christmas this year, Santa!

(1)               Books – despite the cruel and unfaithful God taking away so much from me when He totally destroyed my life with the brain injury back in 2007, I’ve never let him take away my love of reading and so therefore the first item I put on my two wishlists every year (this Christmas one in December and my birthday one in March) will always be books. It matters not that post disabling brain injury I read so piss slowly it takes me nearly one month to read one book, the fact remains that I’ve always loved reading and am determined never to let Him take that away too; hasn’t He taken away enough from me already?? >< My favourite genres are fantasy, science fiction and historical fiction, but hey, I’m willing to give anything bar Mills and Boon a try. XD Two books I’m definitely after: Raymond E. Feist has new books out! I thought Feist retired from writing after I met him for his book launch of Magician’s End but since I subscribe to several book catalogues one day I received one that was promoting the second book of his most recent series! What happened to the first one … published two years before this one! Somebody please get me the two newest ones Feist has written, please!!

(2)               Teddy – the other item always in my wishlists. All my teddies are loved, yes, and all are named, although I will sheepishly confess to having a John Doe and a John Doe 2 (meaning I can’t remember who gave me that teddy XD). Actually, can someone please gimme a teddy that only has short fur? See, for the better part of this year I’ve had to sleep in bed every night without a teddy companion, because mother claims they are ‘dusty’. Well, how about you bring them over when I’m seated at the dining table and I’ll beat the dust outta them? Mother says they need to be put out into the sun to sunbake but when I ask her can she please take them out to sunbake she snaps back at me whaddya think am I your slave or sth?? No! I’m too busy! Sometimes I wonder how she can be ‘too busy’ when she only works two half days a week, but then I wibble @ her, “Surely you can’t expect me to sleep in bed all by myself at night without a teddy to protect me??” Mother actually provided a clever solution to that: she knotted together one of my pyjama tops, called him Griddy and tossed him into bed with me! When she decided Griddy was dirty and needed a wash, she knotted me another pyjama top and I called him Stripey; bet you can guess why. XD But they’re not quite the same as a teddy … you can’t Bear Bum someone with a pyjama top! XD Please somebody gimme a teddy bear with short fur for Christmas~

(3)               Pet – while I’ll forever be horribly guilty of the manslaughter of poor Silver and Bronze back in 2008 (I honestly wasn’t aware that goldfish were so pathetic they needed a heater in their tank during Winter to keep them warm lest they freeze to death and perish!) it’s been twelve years since they’ve died and surely I can be trusted with a pet again? I’ll even settle for a pet rock; Luke MacCourt, whatever happened to that pet rock you said you were gonna get for me??

(4)               Minions – originally, Minions2 was hitting the cinemas around June this year, but the release date was pushed back one year because of COVID-19. That’s alright; I’ll just count that as one extra year I can be completely obsessed with those yellow, jellybean-shaped creatures from Despicable Me! I suppose the franchise will end after Minions2 gets released because there have already been three Despicable Me movies but until then, I’ll continue to be totally besotted by the minions! It’s gotten to the point where even the littlest kids @ church know Aunty Em loves the minions. So, more minions please: BA-NA-NA!

(5)               Coco Pops – whenever I put out a wishlist I try to include one food item. This year, I’m asking for a kids’ favourite, Coco Pops, but not just any Coco Pops: Kelloggs have recently released a WHITE CHOCOLATE version of it! Someone bring me a box, please! Otherwise any box of unhealthy cereal, like Frosties/Fruit Loops will do. XD

(6)               Outdoors electric wheelchair – I’m just asking for this in the future, because nobody knows when the coronavirus pandemic will blow over and normal overseas flights will be allowed to resume, but when that time comes, could somebody (or somebodies) please get me an outdoors electric wheelchair? The reason why I’ve been unable to return to Hong Kong to visit all my beloved family and awesome friends since 2012 is because when I’m in Hong Kong, mother and I usually stay with her younger sister, who lives up the top of a steep hill. Now, on level ground I’m more than capable of wheeling and steering myself just fine (albeit slowly because I’ve only got one more-or-less functional arm and one more-or-less functional leg for doing that with) but unfortunately I’m simply not physically strong enough to push myself uphill with. The last time I was in Hong Kong, eight years ago back in 2012, that task fell to my dad and as a result, he hurt his back. That’s when he decided I’d not visit Hong Kong anymore; instead, he and mother took turns going back once yearly themselves, until the coronavirus hit. Before the NDIS was rolled out, a physio friend from church had advised my parents to get me a new electric wheelchair, because the funding for getting that would cease under this new scheme. When the new electric wheelchair arrived, I had very excitedly asked mother would she be booking our tickets back to HK yet? See, with this new electric wheelchair, I wouldn’t need dad to push me up the steep hill anymore, I could steer the joystick and drive myself! You cannot believe *how pissed* I was when mother very smugly sneered at me that it was an indoors manual wheelchair that she’d ordered for me; it wasn’t for outdoor usage. Then why the heck did you even bother getting me this new electric wheelchair?? It’s not like I’m ever allowed to use any wheelchair inside the house; currently the electric wheelchair just sits outside in the garage and I think the battery ran flat ages ago. *sigh* I realise that with the current coronavirus pandemic sweeping the world overseas travel isn’t currently very possible (unless for emergency situations) and neither am I aware of how much an outdoors electric wheelchair costs, but maybe several people could band together and get me one when normal overseas flight resumes?

(7)               Westlife Merchandise – Back in 2007, Pole and I had very excitedly bought tickets to see Westlife’s live concert in Brisbane … and then the cruel and unfaithful God totally destroyed my life with the brain injury. >< Even worse, Westlife never came back to Brisbane after 2007 and three/five years later they either disbanded/went on hiatus! Suddenly this year they make a comeback with a new album and not only that; their merchandise store even includes random things like FACEMASKS emblazoned with the word ‘Westlife’ over them! I’d love any Westlife merchandise but am unsure how to get any, because all the prices are either in US dollars/UK pounds! Please someone figure out for me how a Westlife fan in Brisbane can get her hands on their merchandise!

Hmm … I’ve only requested seven things and I’ve already run outta things to ask for! Lol, guess I’m not overly materialistic unless most people only ask for three/five things max from Santa and I’m actually being a greedy guts? XD

Next post here … prolly my Xmas Greetings for 2020; I’ve had an extremely eventful year but will haveta pick three/four things that happened to include in my yearly Christmas letter to everyone!

 

But that’s not for you to worry about, Santa. Your mission (which I’ve accepted on your behalf XD) is to go out and secure me Christmas presents from all your Christmas elves (aka all my Facebook friends XD)! I hope you do a better job than last year; please prove my mother wrong! XD

Cheers~

 

P.S. (8) Madagascar Penguins DVD I’ve seen the Madagascar cartoon before, but recently during online choir rehearsal I heard that those really cool penguins from the original Madagascar movie got their own movie and I wanna see it! Somebody please get me that DVD please~


Saturday, November 7, 2020

Camry

 Fifteen years ago (2005), the parents bid our old grey Mitubishi Magna farewell and bought a bright red Toyota Camry, registration number plate 380 JDA. From memory, I think the old Mitubishi Magna’s registration number plate was 370 CIE. Why red? Well, I’ve heard that apparently, red cars go faster. XD

 

I have fond recollections of that red Camry; I actually have the memory of driving him to work (my short-lived career as a Woolies checkout chic at the Sunnybank Hills Woolworths before the cruel and unfaithful God totally destroyed my life with the disabling brain injury back in 2007)! I remembered driving him somewhere along Gowan Rd, but have totally forgotten where I parked. XD

However, my dearest dad has always hankered after a 4WD, and so, several years later, the parents bought a baby 4WD, a Subaru Forrester.

Once the light grey Forrester joined our family, mother took to driving him much more regularly than the Camry, explaining that the Forrester’s smaller size compared to the Camry made it easier to drive and park. Instead, she only drove the Camry on the two mornings she went to work for half a day, Thursday and Saturday.

 

Nowadays, post disabling brain injury, I have carers/life coaches/support workers/whatever they’re called nows to take me to Toastmasters, the Garden City library (for Writers Group before the coronavirus pandemic moved our meetings online), fortnightly shopping trips to Sunnybank Hills Shoppingtown and monthly book club trips at the Logan North library. Originally, they drove their own car and mother paid them mileage back (don’t know how much per km she paid) but when mother found out they could drive our car and she wouldn’t have to pay them mileage back she let the carer drive the Camry while she drove the 4WD herself.

 

At the end of last year, one carer had just finished her shift with me, having taken me to the library for GCCW, somewhere with HK-style milk tea for lunch and back home for a shower. When she left, another carer had arrived to take me to the Logan North library for book club. She’d just turned left out of Gaskell St. down into Underwood Rd. when BUMP! The car lining up behind us to turn next hadn’t checked to see we’d fully cleared the turn, gone speeding out right after my carer had turned and rear-ended us! My carer admits to me later that the crunch had scared the wits out of her but all kudos goes to her; at that moment after the initial bumping she had just calmly steered the car to the side of the road and once it’d slowed and come to a complete stop, switched the ignition off. I’d immediately leaned forward and hit the hazard lights before telling my carer I’m alright and was she alright too? Luckily, since we were both wearing seatbelts and since she’d just turned from the intersection (meaning she hadn’t been going too fast) after coming to a complete stop she was fine also; after checking there wasn’t any oncoming traffic she’d exited the car and gone to speak with my other carer, the one who’d just left and rear ended us. Whilst waiting in the car, I’d rung mother to let her know what had happened; after I hung up I’d rung dearest dad also, who said he’d check the car after I got home from book club that night.

Once we arrive at the library, I climb out of the passenger seat of the Camry and walk awkwardly around to the back to see if he had been damaged by the bump.

Oh dear … the poor Camry had a very bruised right bum! Since I have absolutely zero knowledge about cars I don’t even know how to correctly describe it, but the very rear of the car had been squashed in? Looked painful, anyhow. Ouch!

After book club, Kim tootles me home. Mother ushers me back into the house while dad inspects the Camry. A little while later, when we’re sharing dinner together, dad’s throwing around scary words like ‘total loss’. I ask him, ‘Dad, I’m sure having a very bruised bum would hurt like hell but surely it’s not a death sentence, right?’

Dad explains that since we’ve had the Camry since 2005, the cost of fixing him might be more expensive than just buying a new car, hence the total loss. I was sad, because like I said earlier, I actually have the memory of driving him to work at the Sunnybank Hills Woolies and if this was his end, I’d really miss him!

To that end, I asked mother one afternoon could she please take a photo of me sitting in the red Camry with both hands holding onto the steering wheel, because if the poor Camry was really going to his demise when she took him to Toyota for his assessment, I wanted one final photo with him. Thanks muchly to mother who agrees; climbing into the driver’s seat was awkward (my functioning right side means I prefer to get into the car from the passenger side) but hey, I managed.

You can imagine my joy and relief when mother gets back home and reports that we can get the Camry back coz insurance will fix his bum! (Okay, that sentence just sounds weird. XD) But we’d get the Camry back sparkly new, hoorah, and hopefully he’d get driven for many more years! (Again, my absolute ignorance of cars is showing when I confess that I have absolutely no idea how long cars usually last XD)

Dad was hilarious; over dinner the night after the Camry returned home, he randomly asked me, ‘Hey, what’s getting a new bum called?’

Me: ‘Huh?”’

Dad, laughing. ‘You know, a new bum. Like when celebrities go and get cosmetic surgery to get a new bum. What’s that called?’

I join in the laughter, teaching him, ‘Oh, buttlift. The Camry just got a bumlift.’

So the Camry rejoined our family. Mother drove him to work for her two mornings at the GPs, and carers drove him when taking me to appointments/events.

We’d all hoped the Camry had been given a second chance at life and would remain in our family for many more years to come.

Alas, however, that was not the case …

 

Partway through this year, my UQ physio teacher started me on this intensive block of physio, where instead of attending once a week for one hour, I attend thrice a week for four hours. Wednesday was a double whammy: two straight hours of physio, from 9am till 11am. That meant the carer would come at 8:15am to drive me to UQ. In the afternoon, trips to UQ only took like twenty-five minutes but 9am appointments meant I’d most likely get stuck in peak hour traffic so definitely leave by 8:15am.

That fateful morning, when Hannah starts driving me to UQ, for some reason she doesn’t listen to her GPS who says to turn right at the top of Alan Cresc. into Gaskell St. and turns left instead. That’s alright; the GPS is a smart fella and immediately readjusts her route, telling Hannah to turn right into Underwood Rd. next instead. The car was fully stopped at the intersection; after Hannah checks one side (the left) she pulls out slowly to turn into Underwood Rd. Suddenly, BLAM! We get T-boned! Hannah shrieks on impact; as the Camry is smashed across the lanes my immediate thought reaction’s “Oh, sh*t (excuse my French; in my defence I didn’t react outwardly when the car was hit but this was what I truly thought XD); the next car that comes zooming up Underwood Rd. will hit me, coz I’m sitting in the death seat … gosh, I hope it’s quick and won’t hurt … mother, please look after my dearest dad for me after I’m gone, okay? You’ll be fine without me; you’ll prolly chuck a party considering how you’re always bitching at me that because you haveta drive me to appointments and such, you don’t have a social life anymore but I’ve always been a daddy’s girl and dad might miss me some, you know? Please be nice to my dearest dad after I’m gone!

In the next second, the Camry has jerked to a halt on the side of the road, beyond the moving lanes of traffic, and I realise that somehow, I’m still alive. Still, no time to talk about that now; I immediately lean forward, hit the hazard lights on and urgently tell Hannah, ‘I’m uninjured. Are you okay too or do I call the ambulance for you straightaway?’

Poor Hannah just burst straight into tears. ‘It’s all my fault!’ She wailed. ‘I forgot to check both ways!’

‘NO!’ I replied rather forcefully; I needed to find out whether Hannah had been injured or not! ‘Tell me NOW: are you alright or do I call the ambulance right away?’

In between sobs, Hannah gasps that she’s fine. In that case, no time to worry about her. Reaching for my mobile, I immediately ring home. When mother answers, I speak urgently. ‘Mum, we’re fine,’ I begin (didn’t want to freak her out too badly, see. XD) ‘But Hannah and I just got T-boned at Gaskell St. and Underwood Rd. You’d better get out here right now.’ Poor mother must’ve been shocked; she double-checked to make sure that we were both okay before saying she’d come out immediately.

Once I hung up, I turned around and touched a still bawling Hannah’s shoulder gently. ‘Hey, we need to let CODA (the organisation that provides me with carers) know what just happened,’ I say calmly. ‘Will you ring CODA or may I?’ Poor Hannah doesn’t stop wailing; I take that to mean that I should ring. Dialling their usual number, when their answering machine kicks in and says office hours are 9am till 5pm do I realise that since it’s only just after 8:15am they wouldn’t have opened yet! Luckily I remember their on-call emergency number and immediately tried dialling that next; you cannot believe *how relieved* I was when somebody answered! I mean, what would I have said if I’d been directed to leave a message? ‘Um, hi, good morning, it’s Emily Chan here. Um, Hannah and I just got T-boned at the intersection of Gaskell St. and Underwood Rd; could someone please come save us? K, thanks bye.’ XD

As with mother, when Davina answered I immediately reassured her that Hannah and I were fine, but we just got T-boned at the intersection of Underwood Rd. and Gaskell St.; you can probably hear poor Hannah bawling in the background… Huge thanks to Davina who remained so calm and didn’t dissolve into panic/lose her head/anything; after double-checking (just like mother XD) that we were both okay, she asked to speak to Hannah. I shook a still wailing Hannah gently on the shoulder and told her, ‘Hannah. Hey, it’s gonna be alright. I’ve rung CODA and Davina wants to talk to you. It’s gonna be okay. Take my phone and talk to Davina.’

As Hannah does so, a uniformed woman rushes up to my car door. She says, ‘I’m a doctor. I just finished the overnight shift and was driving home when I saw the collision, and I pulled over right away to see if you needed any help.’ I sincerely thank her, adding that we were both physically fine but that Hannah might be stuck in the car coz the other car that had T-boned us had hit near her car door. By then, the driver of the car that had T-boned us had also come over to check that we were unharmed. Having finished the call to Davina, Hannah passed my mobile back to me, but when the driver asked were we both okay, poor Hannah burst into tears again, saying the accident was all her fault coz she’d forgotten to look both ways before turning. Before she could have another meltdown again, I quickly entered the conversation, explaining that I’ve got a physical disability and Hannah’s my carer who’s driving me to physio this morning. Then I add could someone please call emergency services? We’re both fine but Hannah may be stuck in her seat because your car T-boned ours like where her car door is. The nearly bald headed man that had T-boned us replied yeah my wife’s calling now so don’t worry, help will arrive soon. He was actually very nice; since Hannah’s car door had been jammed shut by the impact of his car hitting near her door, he opened the rear driver seat door, reached around and just patted her shoulder until emergency services arrived, lights flashing and sirens wailing. The firies appear first; seeing the damage done to Hannah’s car door and the fact that she’s stuck in her seat coz she can’t open the door prompts the firemen to discuss the need to cut the door open to free Hannah. I’m like oh noes, if you cut open the car door it’s a goner for sure! Not that I say anything out aloud, obviously. XD

The ambulance arrives hot on the heels of the fire truck, again, sirens blazing and lights flashing. When the ambo approaches my open car door, I tell the Asian male paramedic that we’re both uninjured but that Hannah’s stuck in her car seat. He walks around to her side and confirms that with her through the open car window while he tries to pull the car door open. Yup, she’s definitely stuck.

The smart paramedic then comes up with the idea to get Hannah to climb from the driver’s seat into the backseat and exit that way! While she’s in the process of doing that, he looks at me. ‘Stay there,’ he instructs. ‘I’ll come back for you next.’ Not that I’m in any physical condition to just open my car door and waltz away; I have a brain injury and am unfortunately extremely disabled, remember??

When the paramedic returns, he beckons me out. Before I manoeuvre myself out of the Camry, I explain to him that I’ve got a pre-existing brain injury that’s totally unrelated to what just happened and that while I can walk some, I’m just terribly bad at it.

The ambo directs me towards a waiting stretcher, where he bids me lie down onto it. Me: ahh, aren’t I supposed to walk and climb into the ambulance just like how Hannah’s about to do in front of us? You can see I can walk some, and if mother sees me getting a free ride when I could be walking like everyone else is, she’ll bite my head off. The ambo replies yes, but since you walk slowly because of your brain injury and traffic’s already building up around where the traffic incident occurred, it’s best if you just lie down and we clear the crash site quickly.

Fair enough. I clamber awkwardly onto the stretcher, joking to the paramedic that if mother sees and bites my head off, he’ll haveta defend me. For some reason, after I’d rung mother and told her what had happened, she took ages before finally appearing; I relaxed somewhat when I saw her about to cross Underwood Rd. to where the Camry had been rammed. When I exited the car and headed towards the ambulance, I’d not seen her but presumed she was still talking to the authorities.

Once we’re all on-board, the driver starts taking us to the hospital. I’m presuming we’ll go to the QE2 coz that’s the closest hospital with an emergency department from my place and that’s where I was carted off to when I first collapsed with my brain injury back in 2007. Then the ambo informs us we’re going to the P.A. and I’m like, wonder why? Not that it mattered! I did have a question for the paramedic, though. ‘How come when you guys first arrived, you came with sirens wailing and lights flashing? Surely when the driver of the car that T-boned us rang emergency services for you guys he’d have said we were stable and not at risk of suddenly dying anytime soon?’

The ambo laughed, before explaining that they had just wanted to clear the traffic, because it turns out whenever there’s a crash people tend to just slow down, pull over and gawk! Hence the flashing lights and wailing sirens to disperse them. Obviously the trip to the hospital was much slower (with lights flashing and sirens wailing the ambulance would’ve had precedence on the road and bolted to the scene of the incident) and quieter. While the paramedic in the front drove, the ambo that had loaded us into the back of the ambulance pulled out some iPad thingy and took down our details. Out of curiosity, I asked, ‘Sir, what kind of Asian are you?’ Despite him having very closely cropped hair (he was practically bald), I could see he was Asian, only I’m not as clever as mother at recognising looks (okay, so I’m actually hopeless XD) but I was pretty certain he was Asian.

The ambo gave a gentle smile, before introducing himself. ‘I’m from Guangzhou.’

Surprised, I reply in Cantonese, ‘Oh, that means you speak the same language as I do!’

He laughs. ‘You sound like a native. Were you born in Guangzhou too?’

It’s my turn to laugh. ‘Actually, I was born in Hong Kong, but the parents and I moved to Brisbane when I was only 3.5, so I should sound like a native Aussie.’

The paramedic nods his agreement. ‘Yes, you don’t have an accent whatsoever.’

For the much slower trip to the hospital, first the paramedic takes down my details with his iPad thingy and then he takes Hannah’s. Eventually the ambulance pulls up somewhere I’m not familiar with; it’s neither the main building entrance nor the building where the insane asylum (my pet name for the Brain Injuries Rehab Unit of the Princess Alexandra hospital XD) is and the paramedic opens the double doors. Hannah says she needs to relieve herself, so the paramedic who loaded me into the stretcher sends the paramedic driver of the ambulance to take her to the bathroom, saying he’ll unload me.

Once off the ambulance, the paramedic wheels me a short distance to a set of double doors; the right indicates go through here for emergencies and the left has a sign saying come through here for non-emergencies. Obviously, we enter the non-emergency side. Inside, it’s like any other hospital ward. We stop at the front desk and the paramedic pushing my stretcher informs the nurse/receptionist manning the front desk that he’s just brought in two people (me and Hannah) involved in a MVA (multi-vehicle accident). We line up behind other people, and when we reach the person behind the counter, I again give my details, as does Hannah who has returned from her bathroom trip. Once we have both provided our details, the paramedic checks to make sure we’re both okay and then takes his leave. I make a mental note to myself that I should try find the ambulance service’s Facebook page (because surely they’d have one?) and leave this guy a thank-you comment. Only I’d already clean forgotten his name! Maybe it was Tony? XD

Hannah suddenly goes, “Oh, I’d better tell my boyfriend what happened,” and starts tapping away at her smartphone. Luckily, I’d remembered to bring my bag along with me and so I grab mine too and check for any messages. I feel loved when I see a Whatsapp message waiting from dearest dad shortly after 8:15am; after I’d rung mother and told her that we’d been t-boned, she must’ve immediately rung dad and dearest dad had contacted me straightaway to see if I was okay. I message him back saying don’t worry; we’re both fine. Just waiting in the emergency department right now. Next I open Facebook; surely I could check-in from the Princess Alexandra hospital? I was super-impressed when I found out that even the EMERGENCY DEPARTMENT of the P.A. Hospital has its own Facebook page!

Suddenly, two uniformed policemen appear to interview Hannah. While they were speaking with her, I snuck a surreptitious peek at them and lemme assure you, I actually felt quite relieved that they didn’t consider me important enough for an interview! See, originally I thought they would ask me what I had noticed just prior to the crash. Thankfully, they ignored me. XD I couldn’t hear clearly what was being said, but in the end, the police slapped Hannah with like a $259 fine because she was at fault in the crash and left. Not only did they carry a gun nestled snugly inside a hip holster; they’re also wired up with a radio! Fair enough, I suppose you need instant access to communication devices during emergencies.

Shortly after they leave, a youngish male doctor appears, introducing himself as one of the doctors in the emergency department and saying he just wanted to check us both out and make sure we were both okay.

Since Hannah was closer, he started with her. First he tapped her back in various places, asking did here hurt? Did there hurt? After that, he gets Hannah to perform other movements, like standing on one leg with your arms behind your back. I remember thinking gosh I hope he won’t ask me to do that too, coz I’ve obviously got sh*tty balance post brain injury and would most likely just topple over should I try attempting such postures/positions! XD Hannah reported some mild shoulder pain (which was totally understandable because the oncoming car had T-boned Hannah’s side of the car) and the doctor did some gentle manipulations, again asking did this position hurt and did that position hurt.

 

Satisfied that Hannah’s uninjured, the doctor next approaches me, still sitting on the hospital bed. Before he can start tapping my back and asking me does this hurt and does that hurt, I quickly explain to him that I’ve got a pre-existing brain injury and unfortunately am very disabled, although what happened today didn’t have any effect on me whatsoever. Just that I’m not confident that I’d be able like Hannah to stand on one foot and reach behind my back with both arms and not topple over …

Luckily, the doctor seems content to lemme sit upright in the hospital bed and do his tapping and asking does this hurt and does that hurt questions. He also runs both arms along all four limbs; when he reaches my left leg and encounters the outline of my orthotic, he pauses and I quickly explain that I wear an orthotic so that I can walk; did he want to see/take off? Just that if he did I’d not be walking. I reach to roll my pant leg up but once the doctor sees my calf encased inside the AFO he says that’s all good and don’t bother.

Satisfied that we’re both uninjured the doctor says he’ll print us both a discharge letter and wanders off.

When he returns he’s bearing two sealed envelopes; he passes one to Hannah and the other to me. I glance at mine. Lol, even though he addressed the letter in capitals, he’s got typical doctor’s handwriting because he’s written my name as EMILT! I grin and raise my hand slightly in the doctor’s direction. When he sees the movement from the corner of his eye and looks at me, I tell him, ‘Uh, doctor, my name’s Emily.’

The doctor checks Hannah’s letter and then replies, ‘Yeah, doesn’t your envelope say EMILY? Hannah’s says HANNAH.’ I laugh. ‘Sorry doc, but I think you’ve got typical doctor’s handwriting. It’s actually very neat and legible but you forgot to curve the two ‘Y’ strokes and it looks more like a ‘T’. My name’s not Emilt!’

The doctor holds his hand out for the envelope and I obediently pass it to him. He brings it up to his face before conceding, ‘Okay, it does rather resemble a ‘T’. Not to worry; that’s easily rectified.’ He fishes out a pen from his shirt pocket and then draws two lines on the envelope somewhere, before handing me back the envelope. I look at it again; yup the doctor has slanted the ‘T’ stroke slightly and now my name resembles EMILY more. XD Hannah and I both thank the doctor; he says bye and then takes leave of us. After he’s gone, Hannah suddenly notices a bathroom across the other side of the room and uses it; when she comes out I ask her can she please find a disabled toilet for me coz I need to relieve myself too? Hannah goes back into the toilet she just came out from and then reappears, saying “You can use this one; it’s got a handrail inside.” I laughed. “Oh, the hospital must’ve forgotten to put a wheelchair photo on this toilet sign then; it’s just got a woman on it.”

After using the toilet, I wash my hand and head back outside. Just as I exit the door, a woman rushes up to me, crying ‘Emily!’

Since I’m admittedly dreadful with faces (I take after dearest dad on this; mother recognises people but not us! XD) I’ll sheepishly confess that I had absolutely zero recollection of seeing before the face who had just rushed up to me, but it could only have been one person. ‘Davina?’

‘Yes; are you both alright?? After I finished talking with Hannah I told the other girls in the office to hold the fort down and came to find you both immediately! Only I wasn’t sure where you had both gone and I’ve had to ask several people for directions before finally finding you! Are you both sure you’re alright??’

Reassuring Davina that we’re both okay, I sit back down in some available armchair because there was no point climbing back into the hospital bed now that we’ve been officially discharged by the doctor. Considering this was the emergency department (even though it’s the non-emergency department of the emergency department) who knew if the bed I’d been put in would suddenly be required by someone else? Hence why I just sat in the armchair. Besides, I like things with backrests better. XD

Davina and Hannah take seats beside me, Davina telling Hannah that she’s already found different carers to cover the other shifts Hannah has got on today; she’ll drive Hannah back to my place so that Hannah can collect her own car and then Hannah is to rest for the remainder of Wednesday, is that understood?

Shortly afterwards, mother arrives also. After several pleasantries we all say bye to each other; I also tell Davina I’ll e-mail her and tell her what happened (because I was sure Hannah would be doing the same while Davina drove her back to our place so Hannah could collect her tank). Mother walks behind me and gives me directions out of the building; I’m not familiar with the non-emergency side of the emergency part of the P.A. hospital but from the several seconds I saw it resembles any standard waiting room with rows of chairs occupied by people?

Mother directs me outside to where she’d parked the 4WD. I’d never been there before, but I think it kinda resembled the main entrance to the P.A. hospital where you parked around the front. Once inside the car mother tootled us home; I was rather surprised to note that it was well after midday by then because my appointment at UQ for physio had been at 9am!

When mother reached Warrigal Square I did try politely asking mother could we please duck inside and grab a quick lunch because ‘twas after 1pm and although I hadn’t done any exercises at physio this morning I’d had quite an early breakfast and was hungry. I thought it a reasonable request but mother immediately bit my head off (figuratively, not literally, obviously XD), tootled me home and fed me a small half bowl of tasteless, boiled rice leftovers. XD

Actually, when mother pulled into the driveway, our Cantonese neighbour Uncle Alan was actually on it sweeping away some blown leaves/sth else; his wife was with him also. After I’d climbed awkwardly out of the car Aunty Emily rushed up to me, exclaiming, ‘Are you alright?? Michelle (their middle daughter) read about what happened to you on Facebook and told us; we came over right away!’

I thanked her for her concern and said please don’t worry; nobody was injured. Aunty Emily then passed me a box of Hello Panda bikkies, saying, “Here, I bought these for you.” Aww, isn’t she sweet~

That afternoon, while mother was upstairs taking her long afternoon nap that usually stretches well into the evening, I e-mailed Sonia (the teacher at the UQ physio clinic) apologising to her for missing my appointment that day (Tuesdays and Fridays I have physio there for one hour but Wednesday’s are my longer two-hour sessions) and explaining what had occurred. Less than one hour later she replied, saying Em!!!
What an ordeal! I hope that Hannah recovers from the shock! And you too of course! See you Friday!

Thanks also to everyone who reacted and commented with messages of support and well wishes on the post I shared while waiting in the emergency department of the Princess Alexandra hospital for the doctor to come assess us; I thought the funniest was one SHINE fellowship sister, who wrote ‘I hope your mum fed you a big lunch afterwards to make up for the shock!!’ I reacted haha back and replied I wasn’t *that* lucky; lunch had been a small half bowl of tasteless, boiled rice leftovers. To that she’d reacted haha also. XD

What I honestly found amusing was how mother managed to turn something that had befallen Hannah and I into something concerning her, actually, *all about* her even though she hadn’t been present when the incident had occurred. I suppose she felt she had the right because she had to deal with the aftermath like ringing insurers and finding a new car because sure enough, the poor Camry was finally written off. I suppose it’s possible to recover from a bruised bum but this time when I saw the photo of the damaged Camry even I guessed ‘twas the end for the Camry. The entire side of the car fractionally behind the driver’s seat had been smashed in…

In the days afterwards, mother drives to some caryard to discover the fate of the Camry. As expected, he’d perished … L I’ve never heard of cars having souls before, but I will really miss that little red Camry of ours that served us faithfully for a good fifteen years.

 

Epilogue: Mother starts researching around to buy a new car and eventually decides on some Nissan Qashqai. We all head to Nissan to pick up the new car. Originally I’d assumed dearest dad would drive the new car home and tell mother to follow with me in the old car but feel very loved when he tells mother to drive the old car home herself while he drives me home in the new car! Usually I sit in the backseat but that day dad tells me to sit in the passenger seat beside him because he wants to show me something! Intrigued, I climb into the passenger seat beside him; the first cool thing I notice about this new car is that it’s got a start/stop button! Dad laughs, invites me to push it, and starts driving us home. While he does so, I poke around the front selection menu, very impressed with how it’s already got all the popular radio stations preset.

Dad’s driving along the highway somewhere and I’m happily fiddling with the radio stations, when suddenly this new car starts beeping loudly at us! Me: huh? Dad, laughing: look! He gently turns the steering wheel to the left, bringing the car from its straight line along the highway to slightly crooked and sure enough, the car starts BEEPING at us loudly again! I realise this new car’s so smart it can even detect and warn you when you are not driving straight inside your lane anymore and laugh. The only pity’s that the car’s dark grey; the original 4WD was already light grey! Dearest dad’s work van’s white; the only splash of colour we originally had was the red Camry and now he’s gone …

 

Well, all good things must come to an end. Farewell, 380 JDA. You’ve served us faithfully over the last 1.5 decades and while I’m aware that cars aren’t animate and don’t have souls, I hope after you were written off as a total loss and potentially destroyed your parts were able to become useful for something else. I’ll never forget you, considering you were the only car I ever drove before the brain injury wiped me out … thank-you for your steadfast work ferrying the parents and I wherever we needed to go. You will be missed.

Cheers~