Wednesday, March 19, 2025

Birthday Reflections 2025

 Lol, same as last year, I’ve remembered to start my Birthday Reflections for the year   two days before my actual birthday so I’m at least maintaining my organisational skills; go me! XD

I’ve tried my hardest to enjoy this year, because when I turn one year older come Thursday, I’ll officially be in my late thirties! Being thirty-seven last year I could get by with saying that I was in my mid-late thirties but once you reach thirty-eight, you’re   definitely in your *late* thirties … XD

Living the disabled life seriously sucks, but what can I do but wake up and face the new day as positively as I can? Unsure why mother’s so bloody DETERMINED to   brand me a negative person, but hey. Positive people say  that the glass is half  full while negative people say  that the glass is half empty but I’ve only  ever just  said that’s half a glass. What does that make me, practical?

Several years ago, some random   church uncle urged mother to take me to see a psychiatrist and get me drugged up. I didn’t mind, but asked the psychiatrist   could he not please not put me on   anything that makes me dull and unresponsive?  I’d rather keep my wits about me, thank-you very much. The psychiatrist put me on some mood stabilising drug and later on some anti-depressant even though I’m not clinically depressed. When I pointed that out to him, he replied nah, it’s for anxiety. Just curious: are all anxious people put on anti-depressants too/has someone created an anti-anxiety drug? Only the psychiatrist moved really faraway   and mother wasn’t confident with driving me so far to see him so she   demanded my GP find me a closer psychiatrist. I didn’t mind, and am actually quite content to sit in the swivel seat and turn myself around while mother disses me like I’m the spawn of Satan, but apparently mother doesn’t like her coz she defended me once while mother was dissing me? Personally, I’m not fussed:  I just take it all like water off a duck’s back. XD Actually, mother doesn’t like this psychiatrist coz she defended me after she majorly dissed me; I’m not fussed: if mother wants to find some new psychiatrist to keep me   drugged up, that’s her choice. I’ll just ask not to be put on anything that makes me dull and unresponsive since I’d rather keep my wits   about me.  Actually, I’ve been told I   get rather dull and unresponsive during Winter. XD I can’t help it: I   HATES the cold! So send me your warmest thoughts, please~ XD Else take me out for the Winter equivalent of shaved ice; um, black sesame dessert soup?

 

 

Would love to stop being a burden on society and rather actually contribute to society by getting a paid job but that’s unfortunately not looking likely coz I’ve not got any formal qualifications but am unfit for study since I   suffer from memory loss post brain-injury. I’ve only got one functioning hand with which to type with and do so at 31WPM. Willing to do ANYTHING as long as (1) I   can do it whilst seated and (2) it gets me properly paid. Somebody please help me find paid work!

Mostly I’m just grateful that I’ve not got blasted physio (the bane of my existence XD) on my birthday, even though I’ve got it the day after … *sigh* There’s really no   rest for the weary …

But hoping the cold season will come and go quickly and I’m looking forward to celebrating my birthday for the whole MONTH, especially since the vet for my two fluffy unicorns has planned a trip to    Australia Zoo with me near the end of the month!

Hmm … I’m not really a reflective person, you might say … just contact me for a meal catchup! XD

Next post here … lol, I lead a boring life and don’t really   have much to write about … you may not hear from me again until December arrives and I pen (well, type XD) a Christmas wishlist for Santa!

Anyways, until then~

Cheers,
Em.  ^^

 

 

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