Birthday Reflections 2014

Woah, look at the date! Suddenly, it’s the eve before my next birthday and here I am again, writing down my reflections for another year that’s just flown by! Well, it’s only the early afternoon right now, so technically, it’s not eve. XD

This year around, I’m hoping for third time lucky, and I will be able to secure a steady, paid part-time job for myself. The first disability employment service (DES) I was with was absolutely useless, the second one I was with let me go without finding me a job because of some kinda government funding cut and now I’m onto my third disability employment service group! My first disability employment service advisor left abruptly without finding me a paid job, my second one seems more interested in waffling on about her infant son and I just met my third one yesterday, so hopefully she will find me something! Remember, I’m willing to do ANYTHING as long as (1) I can do it sitting down and (2) it gets me paid. Even washing toilets. XD

Sadly, I’m still always stressed, always freaked out that I haveta walk and that I’ll fall over and seriously injure myself . >< I try telling myself, look, the few times you’ve fallen over, you’ve only sat down, and come on, fat butt equals good cushioning, right? XD

Like I mentioned in my reflections for 2013 (the last post for December), everyday as I endure physio and get along with my daily life, I can’t help but think about what could have been if mother had actually taken me to that healing service and if I’d actually been restored to my former capable self, like, would I have resumed my life as a useful member of society? Guess I’ll never know now, *sigh* …

I’d better take a few lines here to reassure mother (well, she claims to be the only one to read my blog, you know? Kindly drop me a line and lemme know if you spare a few minutes to read what I’m babbling on about XD) that yes, I have honestly stopped at the number twenty-five when it comes to washing me and brushing teeth. Like, I’ve been twenty-six for three hundred and sixty-four days now, and I’ve remembered to only wash each body part and brush each side of mouth/teeth twenty-five times. XD Oh, and another thing! Currently, I endure physio four times every week for my mother: Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Guess what? My birthday falls on a Thursday this week: NO PHYSIO!! XD

Hmm … have I covered everything yet? Well, sometimes I see all my peers dating, getting married and having kids; I get kinda jealous, you know, I’d like to find that Mr. Right and settle down myself too, you know? Only mother has jeered at me often enough that nobody’s gonna want someone as disabled as I am, and I understand that. So, I’m looking forward to being Aunty A to the next generation of little kiddies! XD

Reading back over my birthday reflections last year, the same has happened again this year: yes, dad has demanded that I spend my birthday dinner at home. I’m not too grumpy, though, because I think he said we could go out to the Hog’s Breath Café in Carindale later, so I’m cool. Also, recalling how grumpy I was that I couldn’t celebrate with a meal out at Sizzlers last year, that problem was solved by Leanne and Peggy, who took me out to the Hyperdome Sizzlers for belated birthday celebrations! Meaning my food goal made in 2011 was finally met in 2013~

That should be everything for the year leading up to my next birthday … so, next post here: either how I’ve celebrated my birthday this year with family and friends, or my movie reviews of ronin 47! Anyways, until then~

Cheers,

Em. ^^