Greetings everyone! How has 2013 been treating you?
Hopefully, you’ve settled into the new decade well and truly by now – because
suddenly, we’re like one-third of the way through it already!
Gosh, time flies when you’re having fun, and well, have I
certainly tried my best to have fun this year!
Fun for me started all the way back at the end of January,
when my parents and I went down on a road trip for a short holiday to Sydney
and back! The last time we tried such a thing, I was only a squirt – five years
old – and my dad laughingly asked me, “Em, do you remember? That morning, I
actually CARRIED you to the car because you were so small and sleepy!’ Laughing
back, I had replied, “Well, dad, you know what? Twenty years later, I think I
am a bit too big and fat for you to carry to the car, but how about you just
hold my hand and we walk to the car together?”
That road trip and
family was especially memorable for me – and this was one of the highlights of
my year – because I rode a CAMEL! Yup, after lunch, mother and I were walking
back to the car after a loo break, when I noticed some tents pitched along the
sand. “Wonder what they’re for?” I asked mother, who replied, “There are some
park benches here; how about you sit down and I’ll take a look for you?’ she
came back and exclaimed, “They’re offering camel rides!” Obviously, I was
immediately hooked. “Ooh, I wanna ride a camel! Please please please can I??’ Mother
went back down to the camel people and explained that I wanted to try riding a
camel but that I was disabled; would it be okay if she sat behind me on the
same camel and held me safe? She’d pay for two people, of course. The lady said
sure and so mother brought me down. You can imagine my mother’s terror when the
owner guy wandered past, saw me and remarked, “Oh, she’ll be right on her own
camel. I’ll just put her on one of the smaller ones.” Poor mother was stuck:
she’d already offered to pay the fare for two people and obviously couldn’t
chicken out! From memory (probably incorrect XD) she SHRIEKED when the camel
rose from it’s kneeling position onto all four legs! XD
So life continued along the year. One night, when I was at
Garden City Shopping Centre for the late night shopping with a carer/life
coach/support worker/whatever they’re called now XD some random handed me a
pamphlet. Taking a quick browse, I noticed it offered a free Christian concert
plus invites to free healing services, plus a very short personal testimony. I
asked the guy, “if I go to this, will I get healed? Because I didn’t need this
stupid wheelchair until I got sick. The guy just responded, “Sure, come along
if you want to get healed.” Excited, I took the pamphlet back to mother and
asked her please to take me one night, and you can imagine my distress when she
refused to take me! “It’s just a sham,” she said. How did she know that?! I
mean, if she had taken me but nothing had happened, I could’ve at least have
said, “Oh well, I tried. Guess the cruel and unfaithful god just isn’t
interested in healing me” but because she refused, thanks to her, for the rest
of my LIFE, every single fricking day, I
will be left asking myself, “Could I have lived a full and meaningful life, a
healed life, a normal life, where I contributed to society??” ><
But it’s better to
end with a positive note, so let me share with you the story of how I met my
favourite author, Raymond E. Feist! My Logan
City librarian told me about the
event, and after numerous phone calls with me wheedling away, “Please, I really
wanna meet this guy; he’s been my favourite author ever since I was like in my
teens!’ I finally got to meet him, get his autograph and take a photo together!
One of my church
fellowship sisters asked me towards the end of the year, “Em, do you still ever
pray to God?’ to which I replied, “no, because I know He doesn’t even bother to
listen.” She suggested, “You really should try talking to Him,’ but I was like,
“Why would i? I’m so mad with him for just destroying my life and abandoning me
like He has!’ but she responded, “And he’s big enough to take that. You can
tell him how mad you are with him. Just talk to him.” So, on her advice, I’ve
been trying to talk to God lately, telling him how much I hate him, how much I loathe
Him, how much I DESPISE him for totally destroying my life without telling me
what I’d done/not done that was so sinful that was reason enough for Him to
destroy my life like He has.
Unsurprisingly, I’ve had no response, but that’s okay, I hadn’t expected
one in the first place. You know, if you don’t set any expectations, you can’t
be disappointed! XD Everyday, though, I just remember the quote “You can break
my body and bend my mind, but my soul is not for you to possess. That’s what I
now tell God everyday: yes, He can break my body (I’m physically disabled
beyond word ><) and yes, He can bend my mind (which He’s also done; my
parents constantly jeer at me how I don’t think properly anymore ><) but
my SOUL is NOT FOR HIM to possess!!
Sorry, I’ve waffled
on about my year for quite long enough, haven’t I? Apologies! ^^”
Please let me just take this time to wish you and your
family a very Merry Christmas and a safe and prosperous new year! May whatever
adventures you are currently undertaking continue to go well for you, and best
of luck with whatever new endeavours you try out in the year ahead!
Me, my life is still constantly doing physio (read: I have
no life ><) but Christmas is approaching and I will finally get a short
holiday soon, Yay, I can’t wait!
Hopefully we can continue to remain in touch for the year to
come! Thankfully, having Facebook and e-mail makes life a lot easier. XD
Looking forward to catching up with you in the year ahead to
come!
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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