Heylo one and all! Hope you’ve settled well into this new
decade; has 2012 been an enjoyable year for you?
I remember at the end of last year, when I said that my
parents and I were all very excited to be returning to Hong Kong and visiting
our family, especially my ninety-two year old paternal grandma; unfortunately,
however, she passed away the night we were due to return to Hong Kong and see
her. Still, she leaves behind six kids (my dad’s the youngest), thirteen
grandkids (I’m the eleventh and the youngest girl) and four great-grandkids
(the oldest one turned twelve this year!), which I think is an amazing legacy!
For me, personally … this year has unfortunately been filled
with endless physio; I was aghast to have reached fifty sessions of physio by 1st
of June, distraught to have reached seventy-five sessions of physio by the 8th
of August and simply devastated to reach a whopping one hundred sessions of
physio by the 2nd of October. Back at the beginning of February, I
was very upset to have reached the fifth year since the cruel and unfaithful
god destroyed my life with the disabling brain tumour, with no sign that he
would see fit to heal me. See, when I was still living in the insane asylum
(more commonly known to by everyone else as the Princess Alexandra hospital XD),
every night, after god had terrified me awake with some jeering nightmare that
I’d be alone and disabled forever, I’d cry out to him (silently inside my head,
of course; you’re not allowed to make a ruckus in a hospital ward! XD), “How
long will you hate me for, God? How long will it take until you turn your
incredible wrath onto someone else? Will five years be long enough I mean,
surely, surely, I can’t be the most hateful person in the world to you?” Unfortunately,
it’s now been just over 5.5 years since the cruel and unfaithful God decided to
totally destroy my life; obviously, he’s not interested in the slightest in
helping me regain any sense of … well, anything. XD I guess all I can do is
continue trying to improve my mobility, trying to overcome whatever
disabilities, barriers and hindrances that the cruel and unfaithful God has
left me with, and try and live my life to the full! I mean, I’ve only got one
life; I must show God that my life is important to me!
For the year about to arrive … well, by now, I’ve more or
less given up on the prospect of ever returning to tertiary study; what I aim
to focus on is finding paid employment. Yes, I am disabled and yes, I am
limited in what I am able to do, but I’m willing to try my hand at anything
(yes, even wash toilets! XD) as long as I can do it sitting down and it gets me
paid.
My wish for you is that you and your family have a very
merry Christmas and a safe and prosperous New Year; good luck with whatever new
endeavours you may be pursuing and hope that whatever you’re already undertaking
will continue to go well for you. Hopefully we’ll keep in touch all throughout
2013!
Cheers,
Em. ^^
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